ingat kn sempat g wedding my best friend.. tp flight delay and smpai lcct around 6.00 pm... so bubye jola.. hehehehe.. sib bek dh kirim hadiah n request to my friend for capture the mr groom.. he's look so hensem wearing a baju pengantin.. huhuhu. miss him so much... :P
he is my ex bf actually.. couple around 5years and the end of our love story last 2 years.. but he my best friend now.. n i try to terima n lupakan all thing about him.. mmg susah utk kite lupakan org yg dh lm kite syg... cinta 2 telalu kuat..mmg x di nafikan.. tp jodoh n kuasa Tuhan lebih kuat dr segala2 nyer.. as hambaNYa... redha ngan setiap ketentuan yg Allah beri.. nie la ujian yg Allah turun kn pd aku..
mmg agak pelik.. all my friend ask me " ain, how u can accept zul??? sedangkan die yg sakitkan ati ko.. even dh brake off still men tarik tali n die sendiri nk brake off without alasan yg kukuh, n ko sndiri x tau punca n ape kesalahan ko?"" simple word can i said... "he's my friend, mmg becinta sakan dulu... tp kitorg x ketepikan prinsip seorg kawan... mungkin keserasian kitorg sekadar kawan..tp jodoh x sebelah kn kitorg.. my prinsip dlm becinta.. kau la cinta ak, sayang ak, hubby ak, musuh ak, racun ak, madu ak n d most important kau la kwn bek aku ever after..."
nmpak ayat mcm sedap kn ati.. tp 2 la hakikatnyer.. stp kesakitan die ak rs even dh lm ak x contact die.. air muka die, setiap pandangan mata die,,, cukup menggambarkan ape yg die rs n perasaan die.. tp ak x tau sejauh mn sense die kt ak??? sama ada rs bnda sm or len... mungkin telalu lm n telalu rapat... ak dpt rs ape yg die rs.. ati ak sntiase kuat n dpt mersakan sesua2 dr die.. sejauh mn die tipu n mengelak dr ak.. cnfirm ak jmpa jwpan 2 sndiri n x perlu nk mencari... mungkin nie la sense kwn bek 1 ati 1 jiwa... smpai 1 tahap b4 he angkat nikah.. he's call me to get confident n reduce some depress b4 he got married.. walau ati nie hancur n lebur.. tetap ckp dlm senyuman n ketawa 4 reduce his stress... (dlm ati menangis x sudah) n so surprise with his statement " ain... rela ke kau lepas kn ak n menikah dgn org len??? e1 minta maaf sebab byk wat salah n besar dosa e1 kt ain... leh ke kite masih jd kwn bek mcm dulu even ak dh kawen??" merintih jiwa ak n automatic air mata emas aku jatuh.. soalan merelakan die sgt2 sentuh jiwa... "rela or x??? yessss.. aku rela lepas kn kau sahabat.. jd kn keputusan sua2 keptusan yg tepat n mendatang kn kebahagiaan.. jgn sesekali rs kn ia sua2 kptsan yg membuat kau menyesal.... yg bek dtg dr Allah.. yg buruk dtg dr kesalahan diri sendiri... u just cool down n calm.. get ready for akad nikah.. i forgive u frm deep of my heart.. hope our friendship never ending n ever after...i hope u feel same like me...sayang ak x kn berakhir smpai ak tutup mata.. sayang ak as ur best friend.."
thanks emi n baby(akmal) for capture this part for me.. finally i can see my best friend kawen.. he's look so......... x tau nk ckp cmne.. hehehehe
~ PEACE ~
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