Bahagia ker????

5/6 will coming.. OMG.. welcome 25 years old!!!!! oh TIDAKK!!! Tuo sudeh....... paling x puas ati my ex amek my date ak nk kawen tuk die kawen.. giler kurg ajar, n uji kesabarn aku.. giler sibukkk.. 2 date ak n die pilih dlu konon nk kawen ngan ak.. poyo punyer laki....dlm ati ("mungkin ko rs bahagia skang... Allah 2 maha Adil... kalo x dpt yg tebaik tuk diri ko... jgn menyalahkan org len.. salah kn diri sndiri yg selalu meindas n aniaya org... Cash Payment Allah balas...")

mengenang nasib 25 tahun, mcm2 liku hdup ak harung.. ckup matang kah ak????? ntah la... kadang2 nmpak mcm matang sgt... kadang2 mcm dak2 pun ad.. smpai sume org ckp ak bukan akak la gak.. bengang je my sis bile tye "ni adek ko ker???" excuse me.. i'm her sister... hehehe.. smpai 1 tahap my sis said " akak please renovate ur style.. to be matured person.. to be gugurl."" renovate ok??? ape punye bahasa la dak nie.. huhuhu

bukan x nk change my style.. but this is my style.. to be simple person.. x guna hdup begaya tp poket ksg.. sesetengah org pegang prinsip " biar pape asal begaye" but is not me.... is enough to be humble person, biar hdup simple tp poket penuh... hahahaha

bile dh 25 nie.. aku tegolong gak dr 2.5juta rakyat m'sia yg x bekahwin umur 25 thn n keatas.. Fuhhhh!!! dasyat2... actually, now is not big deal.. pmpn skang lebih maju dr laki.. cuma fitrah manusia nk bepasangan. sejauhmn kawen 2 leh menjamin khidupan??? sejauh mn lelaki 2 jujur n setia ngan phubungan??? sejauh mn kebahagiaan 2 smada jngka pnjang or pendek??? actually byk yg bemain dlm kepala ak bile pk about married nie after tgk environment yg dh tejadi n jadi pd diri sndiri.. bukan nk ckp takut!!! tp 2 la hakikat nye bila zaman skang... dorg amek ringan pasal isu kawen cerai.. dh ibarat mcm tukar-tukar brg... tu la trend perkahwinan zaman skang... ntah la.. tepuk dada tye la ati masing2!!

2 sebab ak lom g d wajib kn kahwin n lom ms nye lg utk ak kawen.. hehhee.. pape pun sbg seorg pmpn.. jgn biar kn lelaki pijak pmpn.. lelaki mmg suka dump pmpn.. soo.. b4 getting married... build ur career n have ur own money.. duit adalah segal2 nyer.. jgn telalu mengharap seorg suami 2 leh bg kite duit!!!  in case kalo kene tggal pun, leh bdiri di tapak kaki sndiri.... my prinsip, jgn pecaya lelaki 100% kecuali pecaya pada yg 1 iaitu Allah.. insyaallah.. sume akan belalu ngan tenang...

Holiday Innn

cuti sekolah bemula.... yeahhhh... so ape lg.. tyme 4 holiday la... yipppiiiiiiii :)

cant wait for this holiday season... hehehe... this weekend off to Johor, 2 days menapak kt johor...  

after that next week off to Kuching... dis time holiday plus keje ok!!! outstation around 2 weeks maybe... tiket dh dpt.... fly on 30/5 until x tau... smpai keje siap la...hehehee.. tiket g je dh ad cmpany bg.. tiket balik semenanjung je lom.. coz x tau keje setle bile...  maybe that is a gud news for me... news of what???? maybe Allah x bg aku attend my ex wedding day... niat d ati sgt2 la nk p... tp x di izin kn g... ad hikmah d sebaliknyer... x nk ati aku lg sakit n hancur kot.. hehhe.. ckup teseksa b4 this... huhuhuhu.. apa pun ak dh beli present for him.. t just kirim kt mak n abah to give his present... something special frm me.... walau pun kecik tp sgt mendalam n beharga utk die n family.. insyaallah.. ikhlas dr ati... :)

after going back from serawak... vroommm2.!!. holiday wif my family at cameron highland plak... weeeeeeeeee!!!best!!!!! sejuk nyer..... lm dh x p.... hehehe.. tp x sume la join kn... yg free tyme jer...just nk have fun n reduce some stress... heheheehe... mcm biase aku bwk my free photographer... 4 capture all memories on that tyme..... :D

HAPPY HOLIDAY........ :)

Kebesaran Allah

pedih nya ati, perit nye jiwa menanggung luka dalam yg tak tau bile nk sembuh...tak terucap ngan kata2...
sesungguhnya hanya Allah sahaj yang tahu ape yg aku alami... biar la belalu ngan sendiri nye n hilang mengikut arus kehidupan aku..... Sesungguhnya Allah lebih mengetahui ape yang kite tidak ketahui..

credit frm msg my friend

" setiap musibah yg Allah tentukan sm ada kecik @ besar bukan sia2.. Allah serius thdap ape yg d tentukan dan ketentuan i2 merupakan kptsn plg bijaksan srta tebaik dr yg len.. kite x mmpu melihat kebaikan di sebalik ujian sec spontan dan menyeluruh, bahkan kite salah sgka dengan takdir Allah... semua takdir Allah mempunyai maksud yg sgt penting untuk memanggil manusia kepadaNYA n hati yg suci serta akhlak mulia dan kerana i2 la terima ujian dgn sbaiknya... jgn keluh kesah n hilang petimbangan.. utk mndpt sebutir mutira prlu menempuh badai n gelombang yg mgganas, penderitaan yg menempuh jalan ke akhirat adlah lebih utama n mulia..

Ya Allah aku besyukur terhadap mu kerana memberi kn aku kwn2 yg sgt memahami diriku.. n keluarga yg sentiasa menyokong... hanya mereka2 ni la kekuatan ak tak kira susah atau senang....

Sesungguhnya Allah tidak memberikan si dia sbg partner hdup... mungkin ad hikmah di sebaliknye.. n i2 yg tebaik utk ak n menghindari ak dr segala musibah... hanya DIA saja yg tahu tebaik utk diri ku.. aku redha ngan setiap ketentuan Mu.... sesungguhnya Allah paling menyayangi umat nyer yang penuh kesabaran n dugaan yg Allah beri kan membuat kn aku lebih dekat pada mu Ya Allah.. Besar dugaan mu beri pada ku... Aku hanya mmpu beserah n betawakal pada mu....

bulan rejab antara bulan mulia yang Allah berikan kepada umatnya... akan ak manfaat kn demi ketenangan jiwa n mendapatkan kesucian hati.... semoga Allah memberikan ak ruang n mendapat hidayah dari nYA. Aminnnn

Hate u May!!!

last entry... i told sweet may... but today i said i hate u may!!!!!!!!!!!!!

last year.. on may ... u stuck my breath, mind, mood study....  u stuck and stopped all thing happen in my life....

this year... may comes again... still same... why all thing should be happened on May and near with my birthday.... it should be something very special to me... but u still make me cry and disappointed. May u are very cruel to my life.....

i'm really22222 hate u!!!! please go away frm my life!!!! need happiness comes to me.. miss my smile... my lough... and all thing.. my hearts sooo zero.. "KOSONG" ................. Leave out laaaaaa!!!!!!

invitation surprise!!!!

Entry arini quite touch n sad.... br last week gud news for me...

al kisah nya.... arini blk kg... coz abah soh balik kg coz ad hal 4 setle something... smpai je umah.. shock with 1 invitation card.. guest what!!!???? really2 surprising ok.... i got d wedding card invitation from my ex... kawen sudah laki nie.... serius luka lama x bek g.... terus flat n stuck on my head... x leh pk langsung.... tekejut... x tau nk sedih ke nangis ker... aku pun x sure... tp tejurai gak la air mata emas ak nie... sekian lama ak x menangis... arini aku menangis ok!!! terus amek kunci kete n g umah my friend.. at least kurang segala beban2 yang ad... wat ever is biar la dia bahagia... n i know one day tebalas jugak ape yg dh d wat kt aku.. ak pecaya.. Allah 2 Maha adil n Maha mengetahui... aku just doa kan yg tebaik n die bahagia ke hujung nyawa.... segala ape yg jadi... ad hikmah di sebaliknyer.. walau perit nk lalui.. tp aku lalu jer.... terjah je selagi leh terjah.... kalo nk pikir kn ape yg die wat kt aku... mmg sakit n fobia. kalo bwk g mahkamah... cnfrm family die malu coz ad anak cm die.... tp ati ak telalu mulia kot.. masih lg ad perasaan kemanusiaan n kasih sayang.. let goooo... as a human doa je yg tebaik untuk die.......

n now... just focus 2 my life... for that moment.. no guy on my life.. u stuck my life ok!!! experience byk mengajar ak... hidup for my mum n dad.. enough to me... dh ckup mbahagia kn aku........ :)

~ Full of Love n Memories ~

ALHAMDULILLAH........ Amin Ya Rabalalaminn.... 

finally.... tercapai jugak hasrat murni ak for merialisasikan impian ak n especially impian mak n abah...

impian terlaksana after dpt scroll degree n pakai topi nie... hehehehe

suka tgk senyuman mak n abah after tgk salah sorg anak die dpt degree holder in Quantity Surveying 

2 la impian dorg nk tgk anak2 die bejaya n pegang segulung ijazah...

Aminnn.. Thanks Allah.. beri aku peluang untuk memberikan yang terbaik untuk mak n abah....

first objective was achieved.. n now focus on second achievement to get master scroll.. 

4 me... education n career is first after my mum n dad.... even umur dh 25.. org len dh bekahwin n beranak pinak.. but i'm still lonely n single... hehehe.. but im happy with my life....

as long as my family always in behind and support me d whole of my life... married will comes automatically ngan Izin dariNYA... as a human, berusaha, beserah n tawakal... hanya Dia saja yg tahu yang terbaik untuk kite.... Usaha Tangga Kejayaan.... :)

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lets enjoy with my pict... from my photographer... credit to my liltle brother.. thanks for the most of beautiful picture... thank you... :)

Graduation Day

Alhamdulilllah... selesai segala2 nyer.. Aminnnn.. penantian 3 tahun dh pun berakhir... after harung liku2 kehidupan yang sangat2 la sulitttt. tp sume 2 hikmah n dugaa dari NYA... alhamdulillah..

15 Mei 2012 date keramat..... YAhoooooo!!!! dh graduate.. n welcome 2 alumni Uitm.. hehehe..

Bangga tuk diri sndiri sebab dpt membangga kn d whole family especially to my mum n dad... alhamdulillah.. i know everyone proud wif me...mengekalkan second class upper.. its ok to me... pointer yg sgt bgus jugak bg ak..  :)

gmbr official x dpt g frm my official photographer.. so layan kn je la 2 keping nie k.. take frm my phone...

wif my sister yg giler chantekkkk :D

big doremon n bouquet frm my lovely family...

Tq mak abah... along n kak long.. ekin n emy.

my bro shafik to be my photographer... 

x sabar nk tggu final editing frm u... (dlm ati.. untung ad adek jd photographer... FOC) :)

my lovely friend... best buddy... shima amek aura convo next yer..

sabar k... u will be like me next year.... my twins at Uitm.. 

kt mn aku ad.. mesti die ad... hahahahahaha

(budak selalu stress ngan design interior ach... )

lalalalala ~sweet May~

k... entry x tau nk post tiltle ape2.. hahahaha..

actually... welcome May 2012.. k fine.. next month genap la aku 25 tahun!!! yeahhhh!!! x tau nk rs sonok ke sedih... sonok coz dh besar n leh d kata kn ad career gak.. TPPPP sedih coz all my best friend end on their status.. tinggal ak sorg single ok!!!! sedih... x leh dh nk lepak2 n hang out cm dulu... ntah2 EX ak pun dh kawen... wuarghhhhhhh!!!! nk nangis bile pk pasal marriage nie... kadang2 rs sgt fun hidup sorg2.. but the same tyme ak rs sunyi gak.. entah la... biar kn jer... AAK (ada ak kesah)) hahahahaha

Along May nie mcm2 programme.. d conclusion is my schedule is very2 pack with invitation n my big day... BIG DAY????? what with my big day... hehehe.. actually on 13 may 2012...its my Graduation Day.. finally official complete my study... n on that day gak aku brake off with UITM.... hehehe.. mksud nyer ak bukan lg student Uitm n dh x d pape urusan ngan Uitm la... wat ever is.. UITM "Tetap di Hati ku"... hahahaha.. finally tercapai gak hasrat my mum n abah nk tgk anak die ad degree... bangga jap!!! coz jd anak petama ad degree.. hehehehe... thats my responsibility to show a good role model to all my sis n brother to improve their education n also future life.. that is a big responsibilty to me... wat ever is.. Alhamdulillah......

at the same tyme gak.. on that day.. its a Mothers Day.. n automatically i will dedicate my degree scroll to my mum n dad...even just get second class upper.. but its still something to be proud.. hehehe. on 13 mei gak anak buah den si Darwisy Ikram punyer birthday... so kene beli kek secrete recipe 2 la nie... :)

at the same tyme gak.... aku ad exam for PTD.. stand for pegawai tadbir diplomatik..but the exam on saturday.. i want to be like my brother n my sister in law... his wife la.. hehehe.. both of them is a PTD at Kementerian Luar.. sebab suka tgk travel sn snie.. ak pun influence gak ngan dorg... hehehe.. hopefully i pass on that exam.. susah wooooo exam die....byk sgt tapisan.... wat ever is.. usaha tangga kejayaan.. i will do anything to get my dreams... :P

walau keje belambak2 kt opis.. but still fun wif my activities on this May... May is my sweet memoriess.. :)